Just seen my new baby cousin for the first time...

Awww Laizel was so cute i even had a little hold until she started crying which was the perfect time to hand her back to her mummy lol. Laizel was born on Sunday nite so  i was really nervous about holding her as she looked so fragile. 'Laizel' means God is bountiful so she has a beautiful and strong name which is what i am sure she will be. Evie was an amzing foot rest for me today lol, i would like to add that it was her idea and not mine. I am actually very nice to her...most of the time. When we argue i always manage to come down to her level i am afraid to say lol. I am really missing Tom but he is working hard at the horse sales doing what i am good at...shopping! I will be reunited with him on Friday though so not long now and i will be excited to see what horses he has bought. I jokingly said that we should set up our own horse sanctuary for ex race horses lol. I have hospital on Friday for my weekly bloods to see if the hydroxycarbamide is kicking the white cells butt! I hope so as don't think i can tolerate a even higher dose. I am not sleeping either at the moment even though i am tired all the time. It could be the night sweats i guess or just my overactive mind keeping me awake. I had a lovely day with Corinne yesterday it didn't feel like years since we had last seen each other. I had a chicken caeser salad which i didn't eat as the lettuce was all brown n manky. A member of bar staff asked if it was ok and i expalained that i couldn't eat it because of my leukaemia. He offered to replace it so i just asked for a free drink instead lol. I guess stating i had leukaemia was for something good for once lol. I can't wait to meet up with Corinne again before the transplant as we had a rite laugh.