Feeling refreshed after a good nights sleep but my mind doesn't...

Feel really happy as had a lovely nights sleep and had a lovely relaxing bath to soothe my aches and pains. I feel as though the citalopram is working already, just need my skin to behave next. I have being worrying all weekend about what will happen if the donor fails the medical and if my CML goes in to the blast phase. I am scared that if the donor fails that  i will die cos they wont find another one in time. I am also s**t scared that the transplant wont work cos i am now in the accelerated phase so it is too late to cure me. I am going out of my mind with worry and don't know what to do. The sooner i have a shrink the better as that may help me stop worrying. I know it is normal to feel like this but it doesn't make it any easier. I think i need to speak to Dr Cook about the success rate of the transplant for someone in the accelerated phase of the disease and about what happens if this donor fails the medical. How long would i have to wait for the transplant if this happend? What happens if i end up in the blast phase? I know your probably thinking don;t think about the what if's? But for me the what if's could turn out to be very real as i have had no good news for 2 years and felt like i am dying for the last 6 months.