Scared to go to sleep...

Had the most horrible dreams last night and couldn't wake up for ages either. I have never had such vivid dreams which i could feel the pain in and not wake up straight away. The doctor and me both think it is because i had some cyclizine(anti sickness) at midnight and it hs reacted with the morphine. I am hoping that this is the case cos i had to get the nurse to wake me up every half hour this morning cos i was so terrified. I have never had cylizine at that time before and it made me drop straight to sleep so please please no nasty dreams tonight. I also had a bit of a skin reaction earlier which is probs the cyclosporin(anti rejection drug) as it is common to get a rash with it. It aint owt serious just makes my skin burn. My mouth is at its worst as i cant eat or drink and is rated 16/18 on the score chart. I have been having all my meds and food down my naso tube. My feed had to be stopped tonight because the mucusitos is in my tummy now which meant it felt like i had someone sitting on my stomach. I will give it another go tomorrow. All i can do is try my best and the nurses cant believe how well i am doing.My hair has come out at the front cos there is some bald patches which feel very smooth but the top of my head is sore and red. I can't wait til i can eat and manage to drink something fizzy without it stinging. Just waiting for the nurse to come cos machine is bing bonging now.