In the words of Rob Zombie 'i feel so numb'

I don't know how i feel, don't think it has sunk in yet that everything i have made sense of in my head is now not happening in 2 weeks time. I am back to where i was 6 months ago, shit scared that my disease is going to go to the final stages as they don't know how long it will stay in the chronic stage for. Don't get me wrong i realise how lucky i am to have a common tissue type and even more so having read that a lady on my cml support group site died this year because she had a rare tissue type so couldn't have a transplant. I know that as longs as 1 of the 2 other people pass their medical that the transplant will go ahead straight after that. I did sleep well last night and did not get up til 3 this afternoon and i have just taken my sleeping tablet now so i will be asleep again soon, so Tom will be pleased that he now has some peace and quiet lol. I am going to go see Prohibit and the rest of the horses in the morning and take them all some polo's as you can't give out to one and not the rest. I will try and post just as much on here even though the transplant is delayed because it helps to keep me sane. That is all i can manage to write just now but will try and write again tomorrow, Good night!